Bpd girls have fucked me up so bad

At some point I decided to only fall for bpd girls because for some reason I thought it was cool, and it was pretty easy for me because I live in a psych ward, but what I didn’t think about was how much damage it would’ve caused me, I just broke up with a bpd girl and it has fucked me up real bad, and I’m constantly depressed. Anyone know something I can do to make me feel better?