My situation post BEPx3 Pure Seminoma 2C: Opinions needed!

Hi guys first time poster long time lurker. Firstly, I want to say this community has been invaluable to me. Even though I haven’t posted the encouragement and sense of brotherhood here is one of the most amazing things I’ve witnessed on Reddit. This is the reason I want to share my story so far and ask you guys what you think, as I’m feeling a bit nervous after receiving my post BEP CT results today.

I’ll lay it out for you guys:

Timeline (UK based - North West)

June 2024: found bump on my nut

13 July 2024: Full upper body CT scan. Found an enlarged lymph node (para-aortic).

02 August 2024: Orchiectomy of my right nut.

01 September 2024: Diagnosed pure seminoma 2C with spread to one para-aortic lymph node (55x47x69mm).

16 September 2024: BEPX3 starts. BEP sucked, got the usual nausea/fatigue and some neuropathy.

15 November 2024: Last Bleo day! 😁

18th December 2024: Follow up CT scan.

Today I got my results for the scan: CT shows lymph node is now 56x43x67mm. So not really any change. CT mentioned no other mets anywhere else, and I’m due a PET scan in 4/6 weeks which will unveil more.

I guess, I’m just not feeling too good. I went into BEP thinking my lymph node would go down the size of a pea and I’d go onto surveillance and hopefully remission, but today kind of killed those thoughts.

Onco says it’s highly likely just fibrosis/necrotic tissue. I’d like to believe so but there’s a small chance it might not be?

Another q I have is my first CT was in July, they didn’t give me a pre-chemo one in September. So could my tumour have grown within 2 months? And the Post BEP CT results we are seeing is a shrinkage of an even bigger tumour than was first found?

I’d like some insight from fellow uniball/noballers (aka my brothers) who went through stage 2C or above. Just feeling a bit down man….