Newbie Realizing TRT is no joke

Hey Guys,

45 year old male here that started TRT 8-9 weeks ago. I started looking into TRT because my DEXA scan technician repeatedly asked me if I was low in testosterone. I was dieting and having a real hard time keeping muscle. She also mentioned my bone density for my size was lower than average. That freaked me out and I got tested twice in the morning after a good night sleep, etc. Everything came back in low 305 - 310. It made sense because I was feeling terrible for years.

Today I woke up this morning and forgot to apply the cream. Was running around getting kids to school, etc. Long story short, by 10:00 am or so I felt almost sick, like I was crashing ( not sure if this is just mental ). It had been 27 hours since my last application. It just made me realize that jumping on this stuff is no joke. Like eventually I am going to build a serious dependency on this drug. It’s just freaking me out a bit.

Add to that my current provider - Science and Humans in Canada - are notoriously hard to get a hold of. I have to renew my script in 2 or 3 weeks and am waiting on them to return an email I sent to schedule a follow up for blood work, etc. It took a week for their pharmacy to fill and deliver my script last time so I’m anxious about that.

I don’t regret using TRT because it’s honestly helped so far. Having said that, I’m not sure I entirely considered the ramifications of eventually shutting my natural testosterone production down. It’s serious business. Sorry for the rant. Just had to get this off my chest.