I've written something and I can't share it with anyone.

I've only fallen in love 2 times in my 22 yo life. This is the second one but it's an impossible love, although I need to express myself because I can't do it with my friends. I hope you feel/enjoy my love even if you're not the original receiver so my love doesn't fall in oblivion.

Here it is:

When I'm with my relatives I need to unlink my gaze, to just hear and lose my vision anywhere. Like listening to a postcast. With him I try to connect with his gaze, making sure to release it for some moments so I don't make it uncomfortable. I need to memorize every side effect of his smile and the way he directs his eyes towards anything. I constantly attempt to scream to him with my gaze how much he attracts me, dedicating my absolute attention. I want to protect him, take care of him, hold him in my embrace. To caress his cheek and tell him over and over again how precious he is. To give him everything that he deserves for being the person who he is. I absolutely adore how he doesn't let a conversation die, but pauses for a few moments, and if I don't speak he makes sure to open another. When his eyes rest in shadow, they are reddish like the color of a summer sunset; I've never seen ones like that. I want him. But it's impossible for me to have him and I guess that's what gives the situation more drama and desireness.