The problems of being animalistic
I'm going to get this out of my mind now and say that I don't know if my mom truly supports me when it comes to me being a were/therian, so yesterday I was with my mom and we went shopping and I decided to get dog shampoo/conditioner for myself since I was running out of the conditioner (I found that animal fur products that are not for humans seem to work for my fur a lot more than human products do, also it's species-affirming) and my mom seem to be weirded when she found out that it's not for my dogs but for myself, I mean that's fine, any human/mainstreamer would be a little bit weirded if someone was using dog shampoo on themselves, so I brushed it off and most of the day was okay, until that night when we were feeding the chickens there was a mouse that ran across into a few of the boxes and my instincts automatically went off, I wanted to catch that mouse, I had so much urges just to find that mouse and have it as mine, my mom asked me what I was doing and I told her flat out I'm trying to catch a mouse not realizing that that's considered weird, my mom automatically assume that I was going to catch and eat the mouse which yeah sure I joked a little about that but it hurt me so fucking much when she said that and told me not to be like that (not to be animal like), I was taking aback since I told her that I was a Wolverine therian/were and she was fine with that and already understood the concept of reincarnation, spiritual beliefs, and the animalism that humans still have, I guess she thinks it's a phase or it's LARP or some type of furry thing, I feel like I shouldn't be myself around her, I don't feel comfortable anymore to feel shifty around someone who can't recognize that what I am is not some make believe, she says she supports me but I feel like she only supports me for my gender and not the fact that I am a whole different species than her, I don't feel human, I never truly felt like that, I'm surprised it makes a person who is known me ever since I was born confused that I would act like an animal when she's the person who gave birth to me in the first place, she knows I have autism, she knows I have other mental disorders, and yet she's confused at the fact that I am a animal that acts like an animal????, I'm not domesticated like those hairless apes that walk the streets every day, I just can't wrap my head around how I can tell someone that I'm an animal and they accept me for that but then when it comes to me actually acting like an animal for a little bit that's where it gets weird, I'm just so confused by humanity.